Only Four Days Left...

Originally written on Facebook: Thursday, May 8, 2008 at 7:58pm

It's weird. This whole turn around thing. Sometimes I ask myself where it all went. Then I look in the mirror.

I'm completing my undergraduate education in mere days. This is a feeling I've never had. It's intertwined with ohers. So wierd.

"A man whose gaze bends ever backward cannot hope to find his way forward." -Basch

I cannot help but gaze back. I'm done. Finally. I finished. But's it's far from over. I feel as if my life is ending and starting all over again. It's so shocking and scary at the same time. You'd think I'd feel relieved but for some strange reason...I'm not.

Everything routine and constant will change forever and I don't think I've prepared enough to accept that. I've procastinated and it's tearing me apart. I'm so excited about my future but I want to take it slow. Time is forcing its deadline upon me and I'm suffering the consequences.

What a wierd feeling. All who've experienced this probably laugh. I would too. But I'm here right now and it is shaking my grounds.

I can find peace in the fact that I know I have people that care about me and will be there for me no matter what. I love those people. They know who they are just as they know I care for them unconditionally. I wil never forget.

In three months, I'm gone. In two years, I'm back. A month later, I'm gone again. Where will home be then? I love being home.